08:36pm, Thursday 21 Jun 2001
Song of the Day: Powderfinger - Up & Down & Back Again
I re-read my old hard copy journal today.. with so much going on in my life at the moment, I needed to have a little bit of reflection.
I used to think that Powderfinger song was about one specific incident, but lately it has become a melting pot of lyrics that apply to so many parts of my life. I wish I could make sense of the people around me, specifically those who are not really straight with me.
The good news is, after reading my journal I had to laugh at past angst - I don't have any of that now. Oh, I have my moments where I freak out a little bit, but not nearly as much as I used to. I wonder why that is?
Last night I had a huge talk with my SO (am I allowed to say that?) about stuff that had been bothering me and he was so supportive I nearly did the girly blubber thing. I'm so worried that I'm gunna get attached to my current way of life and the rug will be yanked out from under me. And is it no wonder? Past events have done nothing to inspire confidence in me, and I'm finding it so hard to believe that they could have changed when they were so set in stone.
But, I'm handling it. No angst, just wondering how to prevent the inevitable fallout should this situation go south.
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